LIVING IN A FANTASY

I'VE ALWAYS DREAMT OF BEING A REALLY BEAUTIFUL GIRL WHOM EVERYONE WOULD ADMIRE, THE GIRL WHO IS AS BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AS SHE IS FROM OUTSIDE. I KNOW I'M PRETTY BUT NOT LIKE I'VE DREAMT. WELL MY DREAMS ARE REALLY CRAZY AN D I SHOULD SAY MORE IMAGINATIVE AND MORE LIKE A CHILD.




I'M GOING TO BE SIXTEEN IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS AND I STILL THINK THAT SOMEDAY, MAGIC WILL HAPPEN AND I WOULD HAVE WHAT I WANT. I TRULY BELIEVE IN MAGIC. I KNOW IT SOUNDS CRAZY AND CHILDISH BUT HEY IT'S MY HEART, IT'S MY BELIEVE, I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT. SO. I'M KINDA GIRL WHO IS NOT SO MUCH PRETTY, NOT SO MUCH ATTRACTIVE, NOT THIN OR SLIM BUT I'M REALLY LIKE A KID FROM INSIDE. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HO AM I. I MEAN EVERYONE CAN TELL WHAT THEY ARE THEY LIKE, BUT I DON'T THINK THAT ANYONE CAN UNDERSTAND ME BECAUSE EVEN I CAN'T TELL HOW AM I? I'M KINDA UNPREDICTABLE, YOU CAN SAY...


WELL AS YOU MUST HAVE UNDERSTOOD BY NOW THAT I'M JUST A REGULAR TEENAGE GIRL, BUT I'M NOT "JUST" A REGULAR TEENAGE GIRL BUT I HAVE SOMETHING SPECIAL INSIDE ME. SOMETHING GREAT WHICH IS YET TO BE DISCOVERED.I MEAN, I THINK I CAN GIVE THIS WORLD A LOT BUT I'M STILL HIDDEN BEHIND A CLOSET. NO ONE ACTUALLY WANNA KNOW THE REAL ME. WHENEVER I SEE SOMETHING ABOUT THE TEENAGE GIRLS AND BOYS DOING SOMETHING LIKE ACTING, SINGING OR DANCING, I FEEL LIKE WHY AM I STILL STUCK IN THE WORLD WHERE NO ONE HAS KNOWN THAT I COULD DO WHAT THEY CAN DO, IN A MUCH BETTER WAY? I MEAN I BELIEVE IN ME BUT NOT ANYONE ELSE?

I FEEL LIKE I'M WEARING A MASK FOR THE WORLD. AND REALLY I AM WEARING A MASK. I KNOW WHAT I AM. WHAT I WANT, WHAT COULD I DO BUT IN THE WORLD WHERE I'VE BEEN PLACED IS THE WORLD WHERE THERE IA NO CARE ABOUT THE PEOPLE WHO WANNA DO THE THING THEY ACTUALLY WANNA DO. IN THIS WORLD, EVERYONE IS RUNNING TOWARDS AN END. IT IS THE DESTINY FOR THE ONE WHO ACTUALLY WANT IT, BUT IT'S AN END FOR THOSE WHO ARE JUST CHASING IT BLINDLY OR JUST FOLLOWING THE REAL CHASERS OR ARE AFRAID OF BEING DIFFERENT. SOMETIMES ONE IS FORCED TO WHAT OTHERS WANT THEM TO DO. THIS IS THE SAME CASE WITH ME. WHAT AM I DOING RIGHT NOW IS NOT WHAT I WANNA DO. I'M FORCED TO DO IT AND I CAN'T HELP MYSELF FROM IT, BUT I KNOW AND I BELIEVE THAT SOMEDAY, I WILL GO ON TO THE PATH WHICH WILL LEAD ME TOWARDS MY DESTINY. THE DESTINY WHICH I WANT, MY DESTINY.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY ALWAYS EVERYONE CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE WOULD SAY ABOUT THEM AND THEY REFUSES TO LISTEN TO THEIR INNER VOICE. THAT LITTLE VOICE WHICH ALWAYS TELL YOU TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT FOR YOU AND WHAT YOU REALLY SHOULD DO. I WANT YOU TO JUST CLOSE YOUR EYES AND REALLY TRY TO LISTEN YOUR THAT LITTLE VOICE WHICH HAS BEEN BEAT OUT BY THE NOISE OF THE WORLD. JUST, JUST FOR A MOMENT THINK IS THIS WHAT I REALLY WANNA DO?

WELL I KNOW I STARTED SOUNDING LIKE A SEVENTY YEAR OLD BUT IT WILL TAKE JUST A FEW MINUTES. I THINK YOU CAN GIVE 5 MIN TO YOU ATLEAST , RIGHT?

WELL NOW BACK TO MYSELF. DO YOU KNOW I'M STILL SHOCKED THAT I'M TURNING SIXTEEN IN JUST A COUPLE OF WEEKS. I MEAN IS IT ME, SO GROWN UP? I FEEL LIKE I WAS JUST A KID YESTERDAY. IT'S MAKING ME CRY TO THINK ABOUT MY CHILDHOOD. I MEAN I THINK I'VE LOST MY CHILDHOOD PRETENDING TO BE SOMEONE ELSE AND NOW THAT I'M GROWING UP I'M FEELING VERY 'SCARED'. I STILL THINK THAT I'M GONNA GET MAGICAL POWERS AND THEN I WILL MEET MY PRINCE AND WE WILL LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER... NOW I'VE REALIZED THAT I'M REALLY VERY GOOD WHO I AM. I DON'T KNOW IF YOU WILL LIKE IT OR NOT BUT NOW I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE IS WEARING A MASK AND THEY ARE PRETENDING TO BE WHAT THEY ARE NOT. HEY LOO I STARTED TO CRY, I GOT EMOTIONAL!!!!

AS I'M A GIRL WHO BELIEVES IN MAGIC, I'VE BEEN DREAMING ABOUT MY PRINCE SINCE I WAS A KID. I'VE ALWAYS WONDER THAT HE WOULD BE HANDSOME, BRAVE, A REAL KIND HEARTED PERSON, HAVING ABILITY TO ATTRACT ANYONE. HE WOULD BE A DANCER, ACTOR AND SINGER, I MEAN ATLEAST HE COULD TRY TO BE ONE, A REALLY FUN PERSON NOT THOSE UNCLE OR GEEK TYPE AND MOST OF ALL HE WOULD REALLY LOVE ME. THE MOMENT WE'LL SEE EACH OTHER, SOMETHING LIKE MAGIC WILL HAPPEN AND WE'LL KNOW THAT WE ARE MADE FOR EACH OTHER. I KNOW I SOUND LIKE A FAIRYTALE BUT IT'S WHAT I REALLY WANT.

I STILL LIVE IN A FANTASY. THE FANTASY THAT ON MY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY, SOMETHING MAGICAL WILL HAPPEN WHICH WILL TURN MY WHOLE WORLD UPSIDE DOWN IN A GOOD WAY. I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MAGIC TO HAPPEN SINCE I WAS FIVE. I DON'T KNOW IF IT WOULD BE TRUE OR NOT BUT I'M KEEPING MY FAITH. I'M HANGING WITH A STRING OF HOPE. HOPE OF MAGIC, HOPE OF MY LIFE..........

MOVING ON

WALKING ON THE STREETS
SO LONLEY..........

WELL THIS TYPE OF SCENE HAPPENS QUITE OFTENLY. IT FEELS REALLY VERY BAD WHEN YOU GOT DUMPED BY ANYONE. IT FEELS LIKE NOW YOUR WORLD HAS COME TO AN END. WE SPEND MANY WEEKS TO OVERCOME THIS SITUATION AND OUR BAD LUCK GOES WORSE, WHEN WE GOT DUMPED BY SOMEONE ELSE EVEN BEFORE OVERCOMING THE PREVIOUS DUMPING.

SO WHAT DO WE DO NOW?
THE BEST WAY IS TO MOVE ON. YES, LEAVE ALL OF YOUR PAST MEMORY AND START AGAIN LIKE REFRESHED. GIVE YOUR HEART SOMETIME TO OVERCOME YOUR PAST MEMORY. DON'T BE DESPERATE WHEN CHOOSING YOUR LOVE. I'M TELLING THIS BECAUSE I'VE GONE THROUGH THIS SITUATION MANY TIMES AND NO ONE WAS THERE TO HOLD ME AND NOW I'VE MOVED ON......................

WELL I DON'T HAVE ANY BOY-FRIEND. SO WHAT?
NOW I'M LIVING MY AS I WANT WITHOUT CAREING ANYONE. TRY THIS TYPE OF LIFESTYLE ONCE. I'M SURE YOU WILL LOVE THIS.


SO DON'T BE UPSET IF YOU'VE GOT DUMPED, BECAUSE EVERYONE HAVE THEIR DAYS.......................
SO DON'T FEEL THAT YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH.

YOU ARE GREAT IN YOUR WAY AND PLEASE DO NOT CARE WHAT PEOPLE SAYS, JUST DO WHAT IS RIGHT AND WHAT YOUR HEART WANTS TO DO


AND DON'T FORGET TO JUST...................

MOVE ON.................